Questions from a Would-Be Christian Blogger
Do you ever wonder how to fulfill your role as a Christian, while continuing in your everyday roles in modern life? Each role brings its own set of responsibilities and questions on how to do it appropriately. Many times, these roles cause us to feel overwhelmed and scattered, split between two worlds; the world of a Christ-follower and the world of parent, child, employer, employee, friend, etc. How do we do it all?
If you are anything like me, you bring it to God (eventually). Some of us are quicker to ask for guidance than others. Unfortunately, I’m one of those who wait until the last minute so to speak. Why bother God with these insignificant details? Until one day all the details have built into an overwhelming burden of doubt and confusion.
Recently I had one of those days. I woke up feeling completely at a loss on where to focus. I’d like to share my prayer with you for that day. You may laugh. You may pity me. I feel most of you will understand and identify.
Good morning, Lord. I come to you feeling extremely overwhelmed today, Lord. I need help and I am seeking your wisdom as I look at my responsibilities and activities and determine where I need to focus my efforts in the best manner possible to please you. What desires and commitments do I need to let go? Which ones do I need to change to bring them in line with my spiritual walk? What do I need to add so that I fulfill your role for me in this life? You have promised me, if I ask you for guidance, that you will answer. Please make my heart sensitive to the Spirit’s leading so that I might hear from you today.
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. James 1:5 (NIV)
Let’s start with “our” blog, Journaling Bee, (yours and mine, Lord). I love it Lord! It gives me the opportunity to put my thoughts in writing and to share them with others in the hopes that it may bring them encouragement. Am I putting too much stock in my words? Am I sharing words that you have inspired me to write, or am I expressing my own thoughts?
I pray that anything I write and post would be centered on you and bring honor and glory to your name. I pray that I not be doing this for my own recognition; however, how do I know if I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing? If several read the blog and comment, does that mean I’m doing the right thing and I need to continue? If no one comments or likes my posts, does that mean I need to stop? Or do I work harder? Do I put more effort into “extras” (i.e. free outlines, pictures, etc.) that people can print for their own use? Do I educate myself more on making it a professional blog, perhaps even one that brings in an income? Or do I just keep it simple and continue to share thoughts on subjects that come to me during my prayer time? Do I spend less time on it or more?
To build the blog, expand it into a larger readership, would be much more time consuming. Time spent on social media, creating printables, educating myself on themes, plug-ins, and graphics, etc., would be necessary.
Perhaps I’m mistakenly letting the blog activity take the place of more personal interaction with people who come into my life each day? Do I need to focus more on ministries in the church I attend, taking on more responsibilities? If I consider the blog a “job”, is it keeping me from ministering to others? Or is the blog my personal “ministry”?
I’m so confused. How do I find the answer to these questions, Lord?
What about my home life responsibilities? I have many things I need to do around the house. Deep cleaning, organizing, and repairing. My baseboards need cleaning, the type where I get on my hands and knees and go throughout the house. The closets need to be reorganized, excess stuff needs to be discarded. Cabinets need to be streamlined. Things I don’t use and will never use need to be tossed or given away. My sewing, quilting and crafting supplies need to be sorted. Who has time for quilting anyway? I may enjoy doing it, but does it serve a purpose?
The shed that houses old stuff needs to be gone through. I have boxes of pictures I need (desire) to salvage for safekeeping by scanning them. Do old pictures really matter? They hold memories for me—will they hold memories for others? This scanning process will take time; both to scan and organize. How do I schedule it with everything else I need to do?
I have a church project I’m working on, taking handwritten records and transferring them into digital. Not hard work, but time consuming. I’d like to garden a little—tomatoes, vegetables, cucumbers, etc.—but when would I work that in?
My husband wants me to spend time with him. Time with him, not just being in the same vicinity as he is. Time talking and sharing things. He wants to “do” things together: watch TV, go fishing, camping, and traveling together, etc. My children want me to visit periodically or be available when they visit us. My children, although grown, still seek my opinion and advice. How do I ensure that I’m giving them the advice they need? I need to visit with my extended family more, including my dad and my mother-in-law, who are getting along in years. I want to touch base with people I haven’t seen in a while—making phone calls or sending cards—encouraging them and showing my love.
In the midst of all this, I need to continue with the mundane activities of laundry, dishwashing, grocery shopping, cutting the grass, etc. I want to maintain my weekly schedule of worship, small group Bible studies, and social gatherings.
Whew! There just doesn’t seem enough hours in the day! I need guidance on discerning what are needs and what are wants. I need reinforcement to help deal with the guilt on things I determine to let go and keep. I need reassurance to know that I am doing what You want me to do Lord. I don’t want to go into eternity hearing the words “you wasted your time on things that were unimportant.”
I end this prayer, Lord, asking that it will be made clear to me what I need to do in each of these circumstances. Give me the discernment to see what is important and what is not. What is “kingdom” work and what is “busy” work. How do I fulfill my role as a “servant of God” and maintain my roles as wife, mother, daughter, and friend? When do I make myself available to others and how much do I help with their needs?
Thank you, Father, for allowing me to bring these requests and lay them at your feet. Thank you for the assurance I have that you hear them and that you will answer. Thank you that I can trust you with my heart’s desires and know that you understand them.
I ask all these things in Jesus’ precious name,
Perhaps you, too, need to “bring it all” to God, lay it at His feet and ask for wisdom. To live our lives in a way that pleases Him, we must stay in His word. To live for Him, we must determine what we do that keeps us away from Him and let it go. To serve Him, we need to live our lives following where He leads.
Ask Him for wisdom. Seek His guidance. Trust Him to guide you. Thank Him for being there for you. Follow Him in obedience. And praise Him.
Let everything that has breath praise the Lord! Psalm 150:6
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